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[Nepenthe]

Past couple of weeks really haven't been great. We fell back, which means the sun rises an hour earlier...and sets an hour earlier. So, it's getting dark at 5:30pm now. I hate it. 

 

I mean, I'm kind of just surviving. Rather than trying to get As, I'm just kind of trying to not fail, which is a new thing for me. I don't know what's brought this on, or if it's been a long time coming...I'm just in a serious funk. All the bad feelings, guilt, shame, self-deprecation, are just feeding on each other in this big loop. 

 

I can tell I'm kind of depressed again by the way I'm starting to think about sleep, and the future. Thinking about the future just makes me feels exhausted. I don't want to try to get there, and I can't seem to gather to will, or whatever it is you need for this, to make sure that I'm on the path to success. And, when I think about sleep. It's not really because I'm tired. I think about it longingly because it feels nice...I lay my head down, get warm, and don't have to do or think about anything for hours. I wish I could just sleep for a long, long time.

 

In other news, it snowed tonight. First snow of the season. 

I'm not as excited as I should be. Not at all...

[Horripilating Sea Cucumber]

 

Don't worry Neppy! I think everyone gets it too, we're all just human. But it's good that you're thinking, it shows that you care. I guess you being in your uni is a starting point. That's already into stage one of future decision making. I'm still tripping all over people's opinions and ideas of unis... 

 

 

I get hungry easily these days ;n; I tried eating my lunch at first break instead but then by lunch break i got hungry again... So today, Rosalie was searching up theatre unis, afterschool. She was pretty pumped and excited. She then told me "Omg, Rukaa~~~ their courses are sooo good! I wanna do their performing arts course!" I was just really hungry.. and I misheard her and I had mistaken the (university) courses for (buffet) courses. she gave me this disapproving look and said "yes, Ruka. because I would love to eat the performing arts course" to which i replied "you mean, the performing TARTS course" xD

 

 

 

...ahaha yeah.... *pathetic laughter* this is my life these days... 

[Supreme_Lurker_Primo]

Did a flash mob with 2 other people other then myself, it felt great because I help 2 people confess to these 2 japanese foreign exchange studentsWe were dancing Nee from Perfume and my thighs are killing me...

 

But I finish my physic hw that is due this saturaday, because I`m such a evil person not letting them think for themselves and robbing them the joy of hard work wahahahaha

 

on other news Thanks to Kannade there is appearently a Japanese Maid cafe in NY, my club members will be happy to hear bout that for our trip to J.A

 

Is Dead

[OMGWTFBBQPONIES]

edit: Nuuu wrong thread;

Well, I strained my back in the weekend and it's been killing me since then. Going to see the doctor later today because the pain is kind of paralyzing and makes it harder to breathe .-.

Contusions FTW~

Edited by OMGWTFBBQPONIES, 12 November 2013 - 02:08 PM.

[Joker V. Phantom]

Slow day

[Joker V. Phantom]

Busy day had so much work to get done, but finally finished it!! Time for some sleep, then gotta get up early for some more work.

[Joker V. Phantom]

Today was pretty relaxing, 1 lecture, work wasn't frustrating, got back and relaxed.

[αɖα- ɕɧαɲ]

It's friday and my day was the same monotonous one. A little deviation from the same old routine was that I bought a gift and got approved to have a two consecutive day off starting on monday. I've been waiting for this ~

[Rol]

I'm feeling kinda down this week, dark thoughts about myself running around in my head.

[Yaomo]

my week's been so lonely, despite being with lots of people. around 250 of them, at a nice and social conference. even met my godfather.

but that doesn't help when none of my kitties are here. they all left me...

 

 

I'm feeling kinda down this week, dark thoughts about myself running around in my head.

anything i can do to make them darker?

or are you not that much of a metal dude?

[Joker V. Phantom]

Today was interesting, had to violate a dead animal for lab. Cut out his intestines, heart, liver, then cut open his head, and try to remove his skull and get the brain out.

[Kannade]

On Thursday night I went out to get Tacos and drinks with my friends. One of my friends, Chris, was kinda sick so we wanted to stop by CVS so he could pick up some medicine, but while we were waiting at the cross walk, this hella flamboyant dude was like "OMG, CHRIS IS THAT YOU??!?!11 <33333333 " and Chris was like but then he became super friendly towards the guy. Then the dude followed us into the store. My roommate and I kinda wandered away from Chris and that hardgay dude cause we didn't know if they were friends or not so we wanted to let them shoot the shit whatever in private. That dude was crazy loud though, so when I was in another aisle I heard that dude ask where we were drinking tonight, and when Chris told him he was like "OMGGGGG, I ALWAYS WANTED TO GO THERE TOO CHRIS. "
 
Internally I was like "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! MAN, WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU??? I DEF DON'T WANT YOU TO GET DRINKS WITH US " but it's like Chris is too soft to say "No" to anyone so I was like "Please god don't let this guy follow us outta here. Chris needs to ditch this gay dude right now. " It's not even like I don't like gay people, I just didn't even know who this dude was so I didn't want to be stuck the whole night getting wasted with him.

When he followed us out of the CVS I was like "FUCK FUCK FUCK " but by the time we got to the restaurant door, he said he had to catch a bus and I was like "Thank you Buddha " While we were eating tacos, Chris was pissed at us full flex cause the whole time he was with the gay dude, he kept texting my roommate "GUYS HELP ME!!! " but I guess we didn't have signal in the store cause my roommate's phone never buzzed or anything so we never noticed his texts .
 
Then we left the restaurant to get drinks. After one round we def wanted more alcohol but we were too cheap to pay $8 for another glass, so we left that joint to go to Walgreens to buy cheap alcohol in bulk. Then we hauled everything back to my dorm room and we just watched a gorillion vine compilations on Worldstarhiphop while we got wasted. The next morning I woke up with a huge hangover, but I had to go to work anyway. Thankfully, my boss took the day off so as soon as I finished my pile of work I ditched the office and went back to my dorm to chill. The end.

Edited by Kannade, 16 November 2013 - 09:21 PM.

[uchuu]

it's been a while batoto forum... so as my little come back i will tell you how was my day yesterday! and for god sake! it was one hell of a day !!! (my week was pretty much like that too )  first off, i got up at 6.30 and traveled in a train full of people for 1.30h... with not a damn place to sit!!   i had a mid term exam .... as it wasn't the only one during this "lucky" week i was so damn tired that i couldn't even do basic math like  (2x3+30=)---->and i was like "oh man, this one gotta be 26....yeah.....  " my eyes were burning and i was under the effect of 4 espresso. i was like a cat who got his tail smashed by a car.    but after 2 hours of doing nothing i had lesson and so i mindlessly copied what my teach said. i wanted to stop at university and study.... but my brain wasn't connected at all to my body so i decided to first eat something (it rained, i had no umbrella and i was like a psycho with a hood, as my hair were like that of goku super sayan with a huge killing intent in his eyes, the damn coffee!!)and then go home. here i tried to sleep but it was useless so the only thing i could do was: "oh god let me watch some anime and manga" did that for the rest of the day. i was finally at peace.

[Horripilating Sea Cucumber]

Friday was Mufti day for our school. It's been awhile since the school actually promoted mufti day.. ever since that super nazi strict deputy head came in he stopped mufti day ;n; (oh, for those of you who dont know what mufti day is, its a non-school uniform day.) We were doing it for the Philippines. Most of the international school here was doing it I guess. We had to pay 30,000vnd ($1.42) minimum to wear our own clothes. However we had to wear according to the flag of the Philippines. Everyone did it. Was kinda nice. 

  Sleep study

Spoiler

so it was sleep study this weekend. thursday night i wanted to get as much sleep as possible since i kinda like to sleep sometimes. Woke up and got my mufti day stuff on. Fastforward its 7pm. we signed in the school sports hall and we were ready to start the whole experiment. 50 students. 14 seniors and the rest were juniors, half in PJs half in casual. all psychology students (at least those who signed the consent form). We set up our own booths for experimenting and the night started. We were told to do some physical activities in pairs. The only person i was close to ran to her other friend, whom shes been complaining bout the whole month. Everyone else i didnt like so i just stayed by myself. First stage of experimenting. Everyone was still hyper, we got to use the back basketball hoop and had 3 balls. We weren't allowed any caffeine or sugar, but it was 8pm in the night. Everyone was fairly active. We pizza time after this. We preordered a few days back and had 40 pizza boxes to arrive. Some people ordered their own, the rest shared. There were ribs salads and wings too. Again I sat and ate by myself whilst enjoying new ep of Kill La Kill. Sorta dislike the others around me. We had free time after that. I read through the forums etc. Midway through the night we were given a quiz... We came 3rd. 1am we carried out second set of experiment. I started feeling super bored. Once we finished our exp, i grabbed my laptop and sat outside the gym talking to a friend. got scolded cuz apparently the exp wasnt over yet.. after the experiment we were told to play treasure hunt. i got hyper and excited and ran mad for clues. i'm not the most active person in sports but i liked these kind of activity. though cuz of the sudden harsh movement, i felt like i wanted to puke later. mini break again and then we were told to dance. it was fine for a bit but then i just felt like hurling so i stepped out. people were laughing so much because of one silly thing and honestly i just found it stupid. i guess i wasnt in the best of mood after being scolded. people started feeling sleepy and got irrational. so easily pissed off towards 3. Got bored, assembled Rol. Got freaked out at the stuff.. Looked at posts and laughed even though it wasnt funny... it was derpressing.. did a bin bag fashion contest >.> carried the last test and then we had breakfast. hoping it was as good as they said i tried my first nutella. too overrated. my grammar kinda flew to bits at one point during the night..  eh, wasnt in the best of moods tbh. i wasnt enormously sleepy but it was the rules. people ended up sleeping at 5 or so. quite surprising since most of the people there were stubborn arrogant and egocentric people. internet got boring so decided to clean up the hall to make up for doing that call earlier. the experiment finished and went home on a motor-taxi. unintentionally i started nodding off at points sitting behind on the motorcycle. could potentially kill us but oh well~ i survived.

got home, couldnt sleep cuz of the bright light. just spoke to a friend online and fell asleep at 9am. woke up at 2pm for an appointment my mum had set up. got bubble tea and came home. super hyper for a while and then just irritated. slept at 4pm until 6pm for dinner. slept at 1am and woke up at 7am today. Conclusion: no sleep brings out the human-hating negative* part in me. ..yeah....

 

* : dont worry, i dont hate people specifically. just generally; will explain some other time.

[Rol]

I made crepes with my sister today o/

Good day overall.

[( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)]

I played table football and table tennis for most of the afternoon , it was fun

[Whey]

Great weekend so far, watching the UFC. GSP to be champ. 

[Joker V. Phantom]

Awesome weekend, slept late, woke up, got something to eat, head to gym, got back its already 8 pm by now, time to relax.

[Supreme_Lurker_Primo]

Today, saturaday night I finish my assignment early I took, well more like they drove me and I treat them to Sushi , if their first time to a sushi restaurant. I had the luxury of seeing their expression to wasabi  =D 

It was lovely my first friend ate it thinking it was guacamole. and another was like me though it was ice cream.  And I must tell you all if I had a picture it would have been BEAutiFUL and funny with them chugging water and question come I can eat the whole thing cause they saw me eating the whole them in one go.  Foolish mortal I have a stomach made of diamond as you mortal say or was that iron? meh.  

 

But anyway it was awesome, I had them try bubbletea afterward that seem to help tone down the wasabi.  So it was a good night, didn't get anything done, but eating sushi and seeing my friend experience wasabi for the first time was certain worth ditching a 10 page report with a 1000 word limit. and watching Thor II, Loki <3 hahaha

 

Well that is saturaday night unproductive,but mildly interesting  

[ldyrdy]

I'm doing the impossible... I'm writing the whole week and finally finished my first light novel..

it's about online game like SAO and Log Horizon.. if you guys interested, here's the link:

http://www.mediafire.com/download/3d1ya6xlq42l3wu/Rebirth_Online_-_A_New_Beginning.pdf

 

if you spent some time to read it, i really appreciate it..

thank you...