Two Hearts, One Soul
Part Two
“Are you okay?” Erin asked as Eryn continued coughing, tears now in her eyes.
“No. Yes! I mean… Yes, I’m fine. I just. Wasn’t expecting. That,” Eryn said between light coughs. “So, are you a..?”
“Are you?” Erin countered, blushing less fiercely now that the hardest part of their conversation was now of behind them.
“Well,” Eryn began, rubbing the back of her neck as she wondered how exactly to answer such a question.
Yes, she’s dated girls before. With a body like hers combined with her generous spirit, she didn’t really have much of a choice. To be fair, it wasn’t as if she went out with everyone who asked. She had to be at least partially open to the idea in the first place -- which she was. But was Erin?
That was ultimately the real problem here: the fact that Erin and Eryn were- and weren’t the same person. So while Eryn has dated girls before, that didn’t necessarily mean that Erin shared her sexual fluidity. Of course there was a chance that she did, and simply wasn’t aware of that fact yet. But if she was asking the question, then obviously the thought has crossed her mind. Still, Eryn needed to be sure. So she decided to dig a little deeper before she said anything that could drastically change her younger twin’s life forever. Well, more than it has already.
“Okay,” Eryn began, setting her wine glass aside as she cleared her throat. “The short answer is ‘yes’ and ‘no’. I’ve dated various people of either gender, different ages and multiple ethnicities. But I think you need to answer a few questions for me first, before we can decide whether or not you’re like me in that regard.”
“Okay,” Erin replied with a sigh of relief and a budding smile. Already the weights were lifting from her tired shoulders as she realized that her older, alternate self was also attracted to both sexes. “So, what do you want to know?”
Eryn noted happily that Erin was already returning to her usual, upbeat self. Their conversation was far from over of course, but at least Erin didn’t look like her world was about to end anymore.
“Okay,” Eryn said. “Let’s start with the easy question first: who is she?”
“Oh!” Erin muttered under her breathe, her blush returning with a vengeance. “Well, umm... She’s a friend of mine. Do you know Amaris Khan?” Eryn nodded that she did. Amaris was a lovely, young woman with olive skin and long, black hair. If she had been just a few years older, Eryn might have considered asking her out by now. “Well, we were practicing some grappling moves the other day and... Things kinda-sorta, got heated? Well I mean, I thought so. And the way she looked at me when she had me pinned under her… But it’s already been a few days and she hasn’t really said anything to me about what happened. So I was wondering if I should do or say something to her about what happened. But then I realized that..! And I’ve only ever been interested in boys before, so I… Help?”
Eryn took a moment to think, intrigued by all of this sexually and from a scientific level. She remembered there being an ‘Amaris Khan’ back in her dimension but the two of them had never been close, and even moved through different social circles. Here though, in this reality, there was a potential romance brewing. It was simply amazing.
“Okay,” Eryn said, taking a deep breath for both of them. “Tell me EXACTLY what happened.”
“Okay,” Erin said, in her usual sing-song voice that made Eryn smile. Once again Erin was shocked and surprised by how much fun she was having, just talking to her older self. Even something as embarrassing and as awkward as this, she couldn’t wait to gush about now that it all out in the open. She just felt so safe and comfortable with Eryn. “So it was during our last sparring match. We were going at it for a few rounds when she finally managed to pin me to the mat. So before I could get away, she got on top of me and... Well she just sat there for a moment, staring at me and smiling. She had my hands pinned above my head, so her face was really-really close to mine and... And then she just licked her lips! And all I could think was how good she looked and smelled and felt sitting on top of me. I liked it, and I wanted more of her sitting on top of me, pinning me down. Her weight felt so good, smothering me...”
”Oh God,” Eryn thought to herself as she bit her finger to keep herself from moaning, her eyes wide. ”She’s a submissive too?!”
“Umm, okay. Wow,” Eryn said, after clearing her throat with a small cough. “We can stop there. So, erhm, was that the first time a girl’s ever made you feel like that?”
“I... Yes? Maybe, I’m not sure. I’ve only ever dated guys up until now, so I never really stopped to think about it. And since people usually only ever talk about being either gay or straight, I just assumed I was straight. But we’re actually ’bi’, right?”
“Well I don’t think of it in terms of ‘straight’, ‘gay’ or ‘bi’,” Eryn said, reaching for her wine glass. “I like who I like and whoever likes me -- simple, open and honest. No labels. That’s my rule. What they are on the outside isn’t nearly as important to me as what’s on the inside.” Erin’s eyes lit up with this new revelation as she placed a hand on her heart, while Eryn sipped her wine. Her older self was just an erupting volcano of wisdom and personal insights. “And I haven’t decided just yet,” Eryn continued, placing her wine glass back down. “Whether or not you’re bisexual or just… Into being dominated.”
“WHAT?!” Erin screamed as Eryn looked away, too embarrassed to face her younger self. Eryn could only pray that Erin didn’t ask her for any details because she didn’t trust herself not to give them, which would only embarrass them further. “Wait, so you mean..?” Thinking quickly, Eryn interrupted her with a question of her own.
“Hey!” She said loudly. “I know what we can do to settle this.” Erin raised her blond eyebrows, signaling for Eryn to continue as the former made a mental note to bring the ‘dominated’ topic back up again, at a later date. “You’ve never actually kissed another girl, right. Do you want to kiss one now, maybe see how it makes you feel?”
“Huh?” Erin wondered aloud. “Wait, you mean with you?” She asked, blushing at the thought of them making out.
Eryn’s mouth went wide as she stared dumbly at her younger twin in shock. She had actually been thinking about calling the other girl over, Amaris, so that they could settle this once and for all. This new suggestion was… But seeing Erin like that, blushing so prettily at just the thought of them kissing, stole the air right out of Eryn’s lungs and brought a slight blush to her own cheeks. She never could say no to a pretty blond.
“Yes,” Eryn coughed. “Or we could just call your friend, Amaris, and see if she wants to play ‘Spin-the-Bottle’ with us. You. I mean… Wait, do you guys even have Spin-the-Bottle in this universe? Never mind. Anyway, we’ll just have her come over and see if I need to give you two the ‘Birds ‘N Bees’ talk. Wait, do you know what..?”
“Oh gawd!” Erin cried, interrupting her older self with her laughter. “Please. Don’t,” she continued as she wiped a tear of joy from the corner of her eye. “It was embarrassing enough when Mom and Dad did that.”
“Did they use props too?” Eryn asked. “Mine used a banana…
“…and a condom! Yes,” Erin erupted with laughter. “And then Mom actually ate it afterwards! As if making me pretend for twenty minutes that it was a penis, suddenly shouldn’t count anymore because she was hungry.” Eryn could only stare in shock at first, too stunned to do much else. Eventually however, she found her voice again and managed to squeeze out a small ‘wow’.
“Well,” Eryn began trying to shape the mental image of her other-mother with a banana in her mouth. “That escalated quickly. At least now we know your mom swa...”
“Oh! Don’t you dare say my mom swallows!” Erin cried, before realizing her mistake. “Eww! Now you made me say it!” Eryn had to bite the insides of her cheeks to keep from laughing.
“Hey now, don’t blame me. That was all you! Your mom sounds like fun though, maybe I should take her to a strip club for her birthday.”
“Okay, okay,” Erin groaned. “New topic, please come and save us from ourselves!” She begged the heavens, making Eryn smile as she finished off the last of her wine. “Oh, right, you wanted to see if I liked kissing girls?”
“It’s just an idea,” Eryn said defensively. “A tiny, little experiment. It’s not a hundred percent accurate of course, but it’s a good start. Maybe give us an idea, help us see if you actually like girls, or just your friend. I mean, what’s the worst that could happen? Very tiny, and very harmless.” Eryn added quickly when Erin bit her lower lip. “Anyway, I’m pretty sure you’re going to love this!”
“Oh? And how do you know that -- oh wait, never mind.”
“Yup!” Eryn said with a smile. “Because I’m actually looking forward to this myself, and since we’re the same that logically means that you’re actually looking forward to this as well!”
“Oh?” Erin asked with a raised eyebrow, and a coy smile. “So you’ve been wondering for a while now what it would be like to kiss me?” Eryn did her best not to trip over own her feet as she carried their glasses back inside her apartment. She had tried to switch the focus to Amaris, but it seemed like Erin was set on them making-out. It looked like Eryn had no choice but to submit to the wishes of her younger self.
Erin on the other hand, had expected some stuttering and awkwardness from her older self. She got some of that when she nearly tripped, but everything else was cool confidence and seductive smiles as she took Erin’s empty wine glass into the kitchen.
“Oh!” Erin thought to herself, slightly shocked by what she considered her older twin’s silent admission. Not sure what to do now, she decided to follow Eryn inside and took a seat on her couch.
Once she was seated, she was again reminded of how much her older twin loved open spaces and brilliant colors. Eryn’s apartment was small but lightly furnished, with a splash of bright paint and beautiful paintings on her walls. In each room there was at least one plant and every piece of furniture that wasn’t a table or a desk, came with several, soft pillows.
Sitting on the largest of the two couches in the living room, Erin watched as Eryn practically skipped into her petite kitchen before setting their wine glasses on the counter. Once that was done, Eryn literally flew back into the living room and joined Erin on the beige couch. The older woman was absolutely buzzing with infectious energy that slowly brought a smile to Erin’s face.
“So?” Erin finally asked, almost on the verge of laughing again. “How are we going to do this little ‘experiment’ of ours?”
“Oh?” Eryn asked. “You mean you haven’t figured it out yet?” She teased with a mischievous grin. Whatever anxiety she had felt before about them kissing was completely gone now. This was a new experience and she was eager to consume it.
“Nope!” Erin announced, almost matching Eryn’s grin now. “So tell me,” she teased back. “How exactly do you kiss a girl? Is it anything like kissing a boy, because I’ve kissed a few of those before.” Erin asked in a very, airy voice, barely able to resist the urge to twirl a lock of her golden hair around her finger as she did so.
“It’s nothing like kissing a boy,” Eryn breathed in a deep, sensual voice that both shocked and excited Erin at the same time. In her eyes too, for just a moment, Erin saw a flash of lust and hunger that promised sweet pleasure. A second later however, it was gone. “You see my lovely, young apprentice, it IS quite different,” Eryn said dramatically, jokingly as Erin gasped mockingly in response. “I know, right?! Audible gasp indeed! You see, you’d never think there would be a tangible difference – well, other than facial hair. But other than that, you would never know! That is, until you felt her soft lips pressing against yours...”
It was at this point that Eryn’s eyes seemed to focus on something just beyond Erin’s left shoulder, a special memory from a time long ago that was currently playing in her mind’s eye. The sudden pause was quite short but just long enough to make Erin wonder who the other woman was to make Eryn pause so. Whoever she was, Erin already knew she didn’t like her interrupting their time together.
Reaching out with her fingers, Erin slowly caressed Eryn’s cheek, bring her back to the here and now. Without thinking, Eryn turned and kissed Erin’s palm, apologizing for ruining their little game. But now that the game was paused, maybe…
“Maybe we should stop,” Eryn said aloud, pulling away from the warm hand of her younger twin. “I think we’ve probably had way too much to drink. And honestly, now that I actually think about it, we shouldn’t do this.”
“What?” Erin cried, suddenly furious that some woman who wasn’t even in the room with them was somehow stealing their special moment from them.
“Well,” Eryn began, as diplomatically as she could. “Wouldn’t it be too weird? I mean… Us? Making out and stuff?”
“No!” Erin replied quickly, sounding a bit spoiled but not caring in the least. “I mean, it’s like you said before. I need something to compare these feelings to. If not, then I might never really know if what I’m feeling is a girl-only thing or just me being attracted to my friend -- who just so happens to be a girl.”
“I know but,” Eryn said, smiling despite herself. Before she could finish, Erin took her free hand in between the two of her own, giving her older twin a look that said that she knew and understood exactly what they were about to do. And that she wanted them to do this, to share this moment and continue regardless of whatever moral dilemmas might exist. “Well,” Eryn said, surrendering to the desires of her younger self. “When you look at me like that, how can I possibly resist taking advantage of you!”
“Trust me,” Erin said with a small laugh as her heart soared in her chest. “I’m the one who’ll actually be taking advantage of you here. You just haven’t realized it yet.”
“Oh really,” Eryn said softly as she pressed a single, slender finger gently against her younger twin’s full lips, tracing their outline. “So what happens now?” Instead of answering, Erin’s eyes went wide as a new blush dashed some fresh color across her tender cheeks. Eryn smiled slightly at her young self’s speechlessness before leaning in, eager to taste herself.