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Alraisen

Alraisen

Member Since 14 Oct 2013
Offline Last Active Oct 04 2018 12:44 PM

#1703459 Fate

Posted by Alraisen on 14 January 2016 - 05:06 PM

I personally think fate, even if it exists, is a waste of time.

Now, this is a blunt statement ( although it is mostly because I'm foreign and I can't always come up with the right word), but the reasoning is pretty easy. Why does fate matter? Supposing it really existed, we would not know what would the outcome be. OK, so the destiny could be for us to reencounter again at the Unicorn Domestication Center, but what if it is not? What difference is there between both of those? Thus, assuming fate is for real, it would not affect our lives in any particular way, not in any way that helped us.




#1703379 The worlds you are working in

Posted by Alraisen on 14 January 2016 - 02:08 PM

I stopped months ago. For one simple reason: not interested in writing anymore, after approximately 400 hundred meaningless pages.

But there are times when I read my enthusiastic words and I get a bit of nostalgy, and at those times, I would like to keep on writing, or to start it all over again. But then, I would need to be a lot more prepared

Anyway, one of the reasons I stopped reading was due to the fact of evasion. I realized I had been evading reality all my life, thus I dwelved into mammoth tomes of fantasy worlds where everything had sense and friends... well, existed :P. So I quit. 

If I went back for it, I would really amplify its psychologic/philosophic content, give more depth to my characters...

Goddammit, now I want to start writing again.

Thanks and damn you e.e.




#1673069 What do you hate? And Why?

Posted by Alraisen on 30 November 2015 - 04:20 PM

The feeling that I tell too much things of myself to everyone who asks, and the feeling of not telling what I'm feeling and/or thinking (and there's a big difference between those two).




#1615930 Tsundere, Yandere, Kuudere and Dandere What is Best.

Posted by Alraisen on 07 July 2015 - 11:32 AM

I'm against those preconceptions. I'll explain myself:

It's not that there can't be a tsundere or kuudere in real life. I've know a few girls matching those definitions. Girls that are a bit violent but get more warms as you approach them, or others a bit more introvertive.

But each person is a million intertwined links, millions of unique characteristics that make a person to be something interesting.

However, all of these words are just a way to simplify the girls until they appeal only to my fucking penis, and I don't want that. All of this definitions explicitly include the word "boy" meaning their only meaning is to get that one guy. They only exist as a romantic interest, and make characters bland.

My own opinion.




#1588843 Changing

Posted by Alraisen on 31 May 2015 - 12:19 PM

Well, to celebrate my return to this wonderful site filled with not-so-wonderful-but-indeed-interesting personalities, I have a question to ask. 

When I was a kid (indeed, not so far ago), I had an introverted personality. Which is not rare at all, as long as I know. To meet new people was a tough task for me.

However, as time passed, and with this late months, I decided to change. I didn't want to be the person who is comforted, I yearned to be the one who comforted people. I didn't want to sit at the back and look at world passing through while my eyes and mind dove in some book. I decided to make a deep, deep change, one attached to my core.

It only happened that I met some amazingly awesome people- my first real group of friends, as the other ones were a bit of a dickheads. I came to the conclussion that if I wanted to be extroverted, I had to act likewise. And at first, things were great, we were always laughing, and Saturday turned even more into the best days of the week, and furthermore, of my life.

I've grown very, very fond of these guys and girls. I love them so much it is ridiculous... but problems arise, they always find a way. First, although that's more personal, there are some persons that get a bit... close into themselves, especially a girl I really get on with, but to whom is difficult to talk. As I need the people who surround me to be as happy as I am, it is only natural that I end up spoiled. However, that is something I'll have to arrange myself.

The thing is, the look-extroverted-and-you-will-be... seems getting false. This last time, I really, really strained myself so much to say something, to comfort everyone, including those who sit at the back, to be as witty as those who surrounded me- another part of it is that I feel a bit dumb in comparison to some of my friends-, but at the end, I was really sad. Because all these months crumbled within a few houes.

So yeah, in case YOU didn't read this stupid mammoth- which I understand-, can you change a deep, deep characteristic of yours if you will to do so (like changing from introverted to extroverted)?

 




#1472284 Let's ask ourselves a question: Q11

Posted by Alraisen on 30 January 2015 - 02:16 PM

I'm impulsive. Artistic. Free-spirited and easygoing. Thrill-seeking. Proud.

 

I love the acquisition of knowledge, whether it's learning how the universe works or learning about someone else's life.

 

Similar to Yan, my love of beauty affects how I view the world. I'm moved by beauty. When I encounter it in some form, it's like I try to bask in it, let it soak in. I used to spend a lot of my time drawing, trying to make beautiful art. But nowadays, I'm much more into music. I love how indescribable it really is, at its core. We don't know why we find music so meaningful, or why certain combinations of pitches and progressions of pitches make us feel different emotions. I love being able to perform music. Singing in a choir, being part of a harmony so strong that you can almost feel it in the air...it's something that's never left me. One of the best feelings a person can have.

I 100% believe that music is the best thing humanity has ever created, and it's the best thing we ever will.

 

I've recently learned that I have a very flawed view of the world, and especially of myself. It's made things very, very hard. For a very long time. And I didn't even know why, until now. These aren't flawed views, as in I somehow think I'm way better than everyone else, or I think the world is way nicer and simpler than it is. Rather, the opposite.

I'm working on it.

 

 

I actually totally understand this. I mean, there's no end goal, so just enjoy the experience of living. The feel of different textures against your skin, the interesting varieties of foods and flavors, the amazing sights the planet offers, the countless people to meet. When you think of life as a journey, this is a journey with no destination. So just enjoy what the journey has to offer, because it doesn't matter where you end up.

Unfortunately, this way of living somehow doesn't fulfill all my needs. I haven't been able to make it work for me. :/

I don't think I could ever do this. Without a goal, I'll strive into sadness. I am a veeery emotional person and I get affected by many petty things during my day, be it for the better or the worse. Having a goal, apart from the mere satisfaction of fulfilling it, makes me look toward the future every time I am somewhat down. Like, right now it is not great, but I can do my part to make it better.




#1471464 Let's ask ourselves a question: Q11

Posted by Alraisen on 29 January 2015 - 06:13 PM

You are asking just too complex a question :P. I am many things and none at once. I like jogging, I really love writing, I like reading, both books and comics of any type, but I'm not atletic, neither a geek nor an otaku; instead, I am all of them at once.

I love being alone inside of me, but I abhor the feeling of loneliness; I can be talking for hours or just let the uncomfortable silence extend on himself because I have nothing to say. I hate when people rely on me to create a subject of conversation, because I am not a fucking machine, and there are times when I want only to listen. I can't decide whether I'm a sociable person or I seek friends just because then I can feel I'm a normal person (I would like to extend myself on this aspect, but that will be on another day :P).

I lie a lot; truly more than I should. I've lied hundreds of time when I've affirmed to my father I've never played any violent game, or in similar situations. But I can also lie to friends, pretending I'm happy when the only feeling I can muster inside of me is bitterness. I like to dwelve in my sadness, to think about it, so I can overcome it and just look at life in a new, great way and feel happy for the mere fact of being alive. I am easily affeted by external forces, and so I can be happy when I wake up and, if I feel alone in high school, or I get a really bad grade, or someone has talked to me harshly,my state will rapidly change toward sadness.

I am in the verge of hyperactivity when I am among people, but I can be sitting for hours with no more motion than the little needed to turn pages. And speaking of that, I really become obsessive with the works I like. When I am down, the feel that some work will always help me makes it possible to go on my way (for example, Tower of God extermined the little depression I had one year ago). Not only with that, I can have the same crush for months, without even talking to that person, even without the sight of her for months.

And I adore the satisfaction that oozes from me when I've accomplished something great. The downside about this is, I will exceed myself. For example: start translating blogs by my favourite author, understand that it is difficult and that it takes time and energy from me at the 40th blog and continue doing it for 43 more fucking blogs, until I have to end it for my own sake.

If you asked whether I'm happy or not, I would definetly said I am. Not exactly because my life is easy, or what I want it to be. But if I died just now, no more things to say, I would leave with a smile on my face.

 

...this is actually a good description of myself. Enjoy!




#1470340 Random thoughts/SHOUT SOMETHING RANDOM!!!

Posted by Alraisen on 28 January 2015 - 06:51 PM

I just saw a KFC menu named 2hot4u.




#1444748 WBA 2014 (15)【DISCUSSION】

Posted by Alraisen on 05 January 2015 - 05:58 PM

Lan, thanks for reminding me who *needs* the Drama Queen Award (Will).




#1443802 WBA 2014 (15)

Posted by Alraisen on 04 January 2015 - 08:04 PM

Spoiler

 

05/01/2015 This has been updated \o .




#1434512 Share your favorite Ghost stories/Horror stories.

Posted by Alraisen on 24 December 2014 - 07:29 PM

This is something I wrote for a class.

 

Spoiler

 

I hope you like it :) .




#1433537 Need a Hug? Get a Hug.

Posted by Alraisen on 23 December 2014 - 07:41 PM

Aw, man.

 

*Hugs tightly*

*5 minutes pass*

*Still hugging*

*You try to wriggle out*

*You fail*

 

There is no escape from the awkward "cheer up" hug.

No escape.

At least, you succeeded at cheering me up :) .

One of the reasons I come to Batoto is to get to know people like you :D.




#1414675 What kinds of manga/anime do you want more of?

Posted by Alraisen on 02 December 2014 - 05:58 PM

The fantasy genre is highly uncommon in anime. And I mean, epic fantasy. A good world, with good characters and a story like that of The Lord of the Rings. I would like it to have an great scope, and a story with many twists. Preferable, a original fantasy world (Like Tower of God, for example).

Berserk is a good example.




#1414111 Moments in your life you will never forget? (unless you get alzheimer's,...

Posted by Alraisen on 01 December 2014 - 08:10 PM

There aren't many moments I don't want to forget. But. I go to a bookshop on Saturdays, just to read, and now I've gotten more new friends (the last ones moved), I talk a lot.

Anyway, I was reading once, alone, as nobody of my friends read in that moment. I had a headache. But I was with Monster, I just couldn't stop reading. Then, I heard a group of girls coming, with one boy, and one of them went to me, and said "It's his favourite game!". She said it to the guy, who was holding a 50 Shades of Grey boardgame. Then she sat next to me, and started talking. Just because she wanted to make me happy. Even so, I said little, with the tremendous headache taking control over me. 

They went off. It wasn't until months later that I realized she was one of the only persons ever to try to get and know me. And even more, she didn't stop, she didn't just say hello and that's that. She talked to me. And I didn't respond to her.

Then we could dwelve into months of a fucking story. However, I'll pass that.

I want to remember it not only because it is a precious moment for me but because I want for her to come once more just so I can say "I'm sorry", and "Thanks" :) .

*It's cute moment. Something everyone needs from time to time.*




#1404408 That Awkward Moment When...

Posted by Alraisen on 15 November 2014 - 01:39 PM

Ahh, do you want me to get to know you? ~gives Al the crazy eyes~

Yes. Then we can kill people together O_O .