57 damn you eat way too much sugar
my latest addiction seems to be organic pickles
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58 so i visited friend a yesterday and they have a dog - so they went out to the park which was right across the street along with dog owners who brought their dogs, and threw ball/catch. It was alright, but then lots of children came. There's some strange satisfaction watching children mingle with the dogs. Very relaxing... weird biology
60 same friend told me about a coworker who went back to his hometown
turns out his family owns several buildings and the guy could've lived off rent alone, but still chose to toil alongside with his working class brethren
the guy was chainsmoking, had a house/car mortgage and supported wife and kids on 1 income
my class warfare views are now under seige....
Edited by Feishy Pit Boar, 13 May 2019 - 07:52 PM.
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yeah games start to feel like work is the worst
i had a plan with my best friend since about 3 years ago that we'd play some mmorpg together when exams etc were over. that just happened and rather than fun, i was just so tired and frustrated that we gave up after an hour, he felt the same way too. didn't even want to open my laptop later, what a waste.
the promise of the game kept me happier for a longer duration than the game itself, although another reason for it could be the lack of updates in the game made us bored [we last played in december, just for a week, and there were already updates then]
sometimes i'm so jealous of my friends playing fps games with complete satisfaction while i keep studying stuff, but it was probably best for me.
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now even the game i bought is getting boring, like even after irl epic mode i have to go on epic mode in my game, wtf
What do you want to play?
i wanna play engaging in political discussions like a cool adult, but i don't know how to play, it just seems fun from afar
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i wanna play engaging in political discussions like a cool adult, but i don't know how to play, it just seems fun from afar
fps are built for aggressive domineering types (or people who need to channel aggression)
you people don't seem like the type
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Edited by Feishy Pit Boar, 21 May 2019 - 04:30 PM.
Edited by pokari, 22 May 2019 - 04:02 PM.
61 i dreamt of two two-headed snakes with the father eating the son.... what does it mean
64 the image of snakes devouring each other might be informed by corporate warfare and mergers and acquisition, followed by the regurgitation of things that the bigger one can't digest
metal indeed
Some of my anxieties still haven't gone away tbh. Most of the times I was just memorizing stuff and regurgitating it back on the test without really understanding what or why. Nowadays I look back on those stuff and its like wtf? I can assure you they're all pretty useless tbh and doesn't pertain to real life.
a lot of people actually feel unsafe with automobiles... see if you can imagine them as horses... does it work?
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yawn... i didn't sleep until after midnight and woke up around six thirty in the morning, but i don't feel tired
dreamless sleeps are the best
Was reading about Nobel's biography when I read that he apparently tried to write a play :
However, though Nobel was a man of many talents, apparently his skills did not include writing drama — so don't feel bad if you missed the show. A Guardian article about the premiere stated: "According to the show's director, Rikard Turpin, Nemesis is a lurid parade of torture, rape and incest that features a drug-induced vision of the Virgin Mary, a conversation with Satan and ends in a 40-minute torture scene."
https://www.biography.com/news/alfred-nobel-biography-facts
dang... i feel like that's actually a hentai plot
Edited by Feishy Pit Boar, 25 May 2019 - 10:48 PM.
"According to the show's director, Rikard Turpin, Nemesis is a lurid parade of torture, rape and incest that features a drug-induced vision of the Virgin Mary, a conversation with Satan and ends in a 40-minute torture scene."
https://www.biography.com/news/alfred-nobel-biography-facts
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yeah recently i dreamt my worst fears would come true (since its grades time) but they didnt and yet the dreams havent gone away
watched documentary on rosd accidents and now i feel highly unsafe in cars
Edited by pokari, 26 May 2019 - 01:12 AM.