5. Greatest Strength
My greatest strength is my determination. I was raised to work hard and to be the best that I could be. My parents put a lot of responsibility on me, as I am the oldest, and throughout my childhood and teenage years I had to do well in class. I needed to be number one and even if others beat me I strove to get past them. I needed to be first. Needed to be the best. And I had an addiction to do what others would not or could not. Their limits were what I set to beat, so that I could be remembered in some fashion. It is why they called me the "iron-man" for not breaking under the mental pressure. Competition to see how long your body could do planks without having to break? See who could do integration and mental-math the quickest? Who could hold their breath the longest? Who could swim a mile butterfly? These things I lusted for
However, I forgot myself. I got tired after seeing no reward for a while. And so I burned-out. My senior year of high school through my sophomore year of college I was lazy. I couldn't focus in class at all and was constantly bored. I stopped swimming for a while after I wrecked my knee and shoulder. And trying to find a swimming partner that I could practice against took too long. So I became a bum for 3 years. I regret those 3 years a little, as it took me a while to find who I was again. I needed a challenge and none of the classes gave it to me.
But I have somewhat found my old work-ethic. I originally went into college planning to do bio-medical engineering and bio-chem, but I just couldn't take the boredom I felt in the classes. I need to work in a fast-paced environment so that I can feel some sort of pressure. I said that I would finish college in 4 years and so when I switched over to computer science 3 semesters ago, I had some rather daunting odds. It may have been a little natural talent for it, but it was my determination to finish my degree by the end of my 4th year in college that pushed me along. And so I hope I am getting it back.
6. What do I aspire to be?
When I was 5 I wanted to be a fireman. When I was 6 I wanted to be a detective like Sherlock Holmes. But by the time I was 9, I did not know what I wanted to be. Since then I still have not known what I want to be. I know that I do not want to be in the same place for to long; I have too much of a love for adventure. I want to explore the world. I want to do and learn as many things as I can. I do not want to join the corporate world all that much. The formality there looks to be as bad the red-tape with the government. But until I have enough money to do what I want, then I guess it will have to do. So really, I think what I have always wanted to aspire to be is an adventurer then.
7. 5 most precious things
My knowledge: I love learning. I find it fascinating to learn about new ideas in science or technology, new stories, or even new things about people. And even if I can occasionally get depressed thinking about the heavier stuff about my purpose in life or the realistic and horrifying nature of people, I don't think I would want it any other way. Because through my knowledge, I have found friends and I have found happiness
My loyalty: I will never betray a friend. I find it disgusting that people do such a thing. It may have come from me being a lonely child in middle school, but I have taken on a "never leave a man behind" philosophy. If one of my friends is trying to be a part of a group, I will always reach out a hand. I pride myself in being friends with awesome people
My competitive spirit: I hate losing. A lot. It pisses me off to lose. Which is why I try not to play as many competitive games anymore and really only play co-operative or relaxing ones like CAH. However, it has helped me countless times and probably the reason for my determination.
My beliefs: Everything that I do comes from a belief. A belief created through my reasoning, talking to people, or through introspection. My beliefs are what guide me
My character: I am not the best person. I act like a dick too often. I am rather obnoxious and always wanting to talk to people. I may think of myself too highly. But I as a person am more than those few things. I am humble when I am wrong and need to learn. I am prideful when I know that I am right. I am a listener and a follower when I know there are better people who can lead in certain situations. I am a leader when I know I have to. I can adapt like water or be as strong and stubborn like an ox. And it may be due to my knowledge and wisdom on each of these things that has made me into the best person I could ever hope to be.