Bokura no Hentai

I don't know if I'm trans or not maybe I am maybe not (this is a topic for another day) but I simply can't stop crying with these chracters. all of them.

I don't think it's about if they resemble actual trans people (althoght the mangaka did some research) or noot but... I dunno. I loved it.

I cried with them, I was happy with them.

I don't know how I'm supposed to feel when all of this feels so relatable but at the same time it shoudln't since I'm not really a trans person (or am I in" the closet"?)?

I will cry my heart out now.

Tahnk you Hachimitsu scans, really. thank you so much,

Akane is my spirit animal. 

The only thing I don't get, is "Ya dig my apple?" What does this mean? Seeing it once is one thing but twice, I can't ignore it. I need to know this.

No, see, that's the thing, I am trans, and I do get it, and I've seen it done a lot, please, not every trans person is you or has the same experiences as you lol. It's a pretty good portrayal. I've seen people float through gender identities too afraid to actually take part in womanhood, I've seen people think they're not trans enough for years until they feel comfortable and transition. This is a thing, and while you might not relate to it I'm sure a lot of other trans folks do, including myself.

 

Reminder that she was a teenager, afraid and full of questions, doubts, pain, fear. She didn't have stronger trans influences in her life to help her out here. Just because she entered a crossdressing competition doesn't mean she denied her transness entirely, but it was definitely a moment of weakness, that's the ENTIRE point of the scene. When the entire world denies your existence and you don't have validation, well, sometimes you have low points and you're upset and you make mistakes and do and say things that don't align with who you are or how you really feel. You're hurt, you've got longing, you want validation. And hey, a bunch of people calling you cute after you enter a crossdressing contest? That's validating, probably painful overall, but also validating especially when people focus so much on your looks and so little on who you are and how you feel when you're trans. 

This is, like, eight months late, but I love this reply. Also transgender and wholeheartedly agree.

Uuu~ I just couldn't hold back tears at the end there, not surprising really....I'm a sensitive soul and cry pretty easily.  I enjoyed watching all the characters growing and maturing to the very end, though Marika is my favourite, maybe because I can relate to her the most.  The part where she feels that she can't be a princess anymore because she's 'tainted' was pretty heart-wrenching as well, but I was really glad when she found her courage and decided that she would be true to herself.

All the tears~ That ending is too good ;w; I'd recommend this to anyone really. 

Also

Glad there's an ending that shows all of their growth. Nice touch with Hacchi at the end there. Totally did not expect that. Also lol the mangaka hated them at first. no wonder I felt like the first few chapters or so were a bit iffy for me xD

Nope.  Not relatable at all.  Marika may have her doubts in herself, but what she did was essentially deny her own existence as a female.  I don't think any trans person would actually do that. I know that I wouldn't.  That's WHY I said that the author has done a good job portraying Marika's Gender Dysphoria up UNTIL that point.  Frankly, if you're NOT transgender, you probably don't get it.

I put a comment about her entering the cross-dressing contest earlier in a spoiler tag and someone answered in a spoiler tag.  Did you get a chance to read those?  BTW, I'm not going to bother with spoiler tags here now that there's several untagged comments on this.

Addressing your point, I myself feel the same way you do.  I would not find it at all relatable to enter a cross-dressing contest and specifically say I'm a guy about a year or more after going full time.  It would just seem foolish to me, to be honest.  I know I've been very insecure in the past before going full time, but afterwards I just committed to what I was doing.  That said, I can't say I know how every trans person would react in that situation.  That would be rather presumptuous of me.  But I would think that after making one's transgender status and gender identity known by going full time, that at that point it'd be very unlikely that a trans person would say they were their assigned gender.  I guess I don't get it.

I'M SO HAPPY

 

Spoiler

HACCHI AND RYOUSUKE END UP TOGETHER ;A;

 

HACCHI WAS SUCH A GOOD GIRL! I WAS SO SAD WHEN THE BROKE UP, ESPECIALLY AFTER SHE HELPED HIM.

 

AHHHH I'M SO GLAD.

Ha, yeah, that made me happy too. Watching how she originally was treated was really painful.

aaaa Loved this series. I hope I can buy the volumes at some point.

I'M SO HAPPY

Nope.  Not relatable at all.  Marika may have her doubts in herself, but what she did was essentially deny her own existence as a female.  I don't think any trans person would actually do that. I know that I wouldn't.  That's WHY I said that the author has done a good job portraying Marika's Gender Dysphoria up UNTIL that point.  Frankly, if you're NOT transgender, you probably don't get it.

No, see, that's the thing, I am trans, and I do get it, and I've seen it done a lot, please, not every trans person is you or has the same experiences as you lol. It's a pretty good portrayal. I've seen people float through gender identities too afraid to actually take part in womanhood, I've seen people think they're not trans enough for years until they feel comfortable and transition. This is a thing, and while you might not relate to it I'm sure a lot of other trans folks do, including myself.

Reminder that she was a teenager, afraid and full of questions, doubts, pain, fear. She didn't have stronger trans influences in her life to help her out here. Just because she entered a crossdressing competition doesn't mean she denied her transness entirely, but it was definitely a moment of weakness, that's the ENTIRE point of the scene. When the entire world denies your existence and you don't have validation, well, sometimes you have low points and you're upset and you make mistakes and do and say things that don't align with who you are or how you really feel. You're hurt, you've got longing, you want validation. And hey, a bunch of people calling you cute after you enter a crossdressing contest? That's validating, probably painful overall, but also validating especially when people focus so much on your looks and so little on who you are and how you feel when you're trans. 

Alright I want to clear something up for the comments here lol. Marika is a trans girl, yeah, and she's also young and was full of self doubts. She entered that crossdressing contest not because she's a crossdresser, nor because she is crossdressing (because she's a girl), but because she was wrapped up in The Gender Feelings. The entire importance of that scene was because she was questioning her own validity as a woman, as a trans woman. It was a powerful scene, but also I think it will mostly be relatable to trans people and not so much to anyone else. She came out of that scene stronger. That's how it goes. 

Nope.  Not relatable at all.  Marika may have her doubts in herself, but what she did was essentially deny her own existence as a female.  I don't think any trans person would actually do that. I know that I wouldn't.  That's WHY I said that the author has done a good job portraying Marika's Gender Dysphoria up UNTIL that point.  Frankly, if you're NOT transgender, you probably don't get it.

Alright I want to clear something up for the comments here lol. Marika is a trans girl, yeah, and she's also young and was full of self doubts. She entered that crossdressing contest not because she's a crossdresser, nor because she is crossdressing (because she's a girl), but because she was wrapped up in The Gender Feelings. The entire importance of that scene was because she was questioning her own validity as a woman, as a trans woman. It was a powerful scene, but also I think it will mostly be relatable to trans people and not so much to anyone else. She came out of that scene stronger. That's how it goes. 

I'm speaking from personal experience here!  I AM transgender, like Marika.  How about you?

The VAST majority of transgender people DO NOT consider themselves to be "crossdresers", no matter WHAT others may think!

So they're bad if they think differently from you?

"Until that point"?

 

Maybe you should just consider the possibility that things are not so cut and dry? Marika has always been unsure, even after making the big decision. Uncertainty is human, and it's human to not be so decisive on matters. She's declared a she, but she knows what she was born as and how many perceive her. Even after everything she can't fully deny the reality of her situation. That's all there is to it.

I'm speaking from personal experience here!  I AM transgender, like Marika.  How about you?

The VAST majority of transgender people DO NOT consider themselves to be "crossdresers", no matter WHAT others may think!

Agreed.  If Marika identifies as a girl, then dressing as a girl is NOT crossdressing.  A shame, because the author DID take care to try and accurately portray Marika's Gender Dysphoria in real terms, and basically did a really good job of it up until that point.

"Until that point"?

Maybe you should just consider the possibility that things are not so cut and dry? Marika has always been unsure, even after making the big decision. Uncertainty is human, and it's human to not be so decisive on matters. She's declared a she, but she knows what she was born as and how many perceive her. Even after everything she can't fully deny the reality of her situation. That's all there is to it.

YES the ship still survives!

It feels really weird to see Marika join the contest while dressed up as a girl because... she is a girl?? But if her sex is male, then it apparently still count as crossdressing??? IDK MAN THIS GETS CONFUSING. Still, it was fun to watch them all dress up together aaaaa.

Agreed.  If Marika identifies as a girl, then dressing as a girl is NOT crossdressing.  A shame, because the author DID take care to try and accurately portray Marika's Gender Dysphoria in real terms, and basically did a really good job of it up until that point.

I can't believe it has ended.. I just-- I love this series so much ;A;

Thank you for everything, Hachimitsu and Fumi-sensei!

It's rare I'm so satisfied with a manga's ending.

This was a weird series for me because, honestly, in the end I didn't actually like any of the characters. I kind of liked Ryousuke, but there's a critical flaw in his character that holds me back from really liking him. That said, I don't consider this a bad thing.

I didn't like anyone but I'm not sure I was supposed to. These characters were all critically flawed in some truly screwed up ways, but that was the point. Hentai (deviants) who experienced hentai (transformation) -- which was the title and the last word/pun of the series. They did grow. It was nice seeing them grow, even if it often hurt to watch.

I should probably give this series a review along with other trans/crossdressing series I've read some time. You know, thoroughly examine them. I think this was a great manga, all in all, and I found it very interesting. Thanks, Hachimitsu, and thanks Fumi-sensei (who will never read this).

Thanks for translating this series until the end, Hachimitsu Scans!